*oulfr missed me. So here I am.

I've been meaning to write a journal for weeks now. I just never seem to get around to it. Not that I don't have the time to sit down at the computer, but I just never feel like spending that time writing a journal.

I can't even remember all of the stuff that's happened since my last journal. Laughter, drama, blood, sweat, and tears. All of that good stuff. In a nutshell, though, I've been pretty much just working and getting shit together for the wedding.

You know, I think that's why I stopped updating. I think I decided that most of you (well a few in particular) were probably tired of hearing about my wedding. I'm sorry for that, guys, but that's what's taking up most of my spare time. So, here's just a brief update on what I've gotten done.

* My dress came in and I had it pinned for alterations. Next appointment: June 18.
* Finalized guest list and compiled addresses. Most of my family got the boot.
* Hired a photographer. Thank you, Craigslist.
* Chose salon for hair/make up. The though of such girlishness makes me cringe.
* Ordered reception decorations. Floating silk lilies are super win.
* Paid off venue and cruise. Am now flat broke.
* First step of invitations completed. Lots of glitter and confetti. Everywhere.
* Completed first step in premarital counseling. Awkwardness to follow.
* Registered for gifts at Bed, Bath, & Beyond. That scanner gun was every bit as fun as I imagined.
* Started on "wedding website" tonight. Talk about last minute.

That's all I can think of for now. We've gotten other things done but... really, all the details escape me.

Oh, also, my matron of honor decided that we need to go to Medieval Times for my pseudo bachelorette party. This is mostly due to the fact that I flat out refused to have a bridal shower, so she feels compelled to take me out. I love her, but gosh, she's so silly.

In other news, one of my friends from back home came for a visit last weekend. He got here on Thursday night and left early on the following Tuesday. It was a short visit, but it was good to see him. Honestly, we didn't do a lot of sight seeing. We went to uptown Dallas and rode the trolley car and we went to the money factory in Fort Worth, but other than that we just went out to eat a lot. He was thoroughly impressed by both CiCi's Pizza and Chipotle (sorry, *Comrade-Kelly, I still wasn't brave enough to put guacamole in my burrito!). The boy likes to eat! Typical. I had to work on Saturday because I took Monday off so that we could go to Forth Worth, but I think it was worth it. I'd probably do it again if it didn't mean that I have to be there at 7 o'clock in the morning. I just can't do it! Plus, one of the managers put four boxes of Krispy Kremes right outside of my cubicle. Seriously not cool.

Things at work have been getting a little crazy again. One of my co-workers (she was the half- line-- meaning she could do some of the things the manager can) is really starting to work my last nerve. Basically, my boss started giving me some of the half-line stuff to do, because I'm responsible, a fast learner, and I can get things done pretty efficiently. Then this particular co-worker started being out of work every other week or so on FMLA because of her asthma (which she didn't even know she had until this year), so my boss just handed all of the half-line work over to me. So now whenever the former half-line actually bothers to show up she gives me an attitude. She's even gone so far as to neglect to tell me things about the half-line work in hopes that I'll get in trouble with the boss. Luckily for me, Jana knows exactly how much of a snot my co-worker can be. It's just frustrating to me because it's not like I ever tried to steal her job-- hell, she practically handed it to me when she stopped showing up to work.

To make matters worse, we did some rearranging and my desk is now on the other side of the wall from where it used to be. There is now a row of managers' cubicles behind me. Which in itself is not a problem, because my boss can't see my desk, and the other managers don't care, but the one that happens to be directly behind me is so obnoxiously loud! He's an ok guy and all, don't get me wrong, but he's a maintenance manager, so he's on his headset all day with the techs and he talks really loud. And recently he's decided that he's going to play classical music really loudly all day. He's been on vacation since I switched desks, but I can definitely foresee some issues here.

I think I'm just about done rambling now. I want you all to know that even though I'm not around and I don't comment often, I do still check up on you and miss you very much. Nat, James, good luck with your new jobs. I'm sure you'll make the most of it. Will, I hope you find a new job soon if you haven't already, and thank you. Josie, I'm so proud of you, I hope your decision works out for the best. Steven, you need to hang in there, and very best wishes to your friend. Spike and Dan... I need to see you around more often!

I'm about 10 minutes from face-planting into my desk, so I think it's time for bed for me. Heat, last night's insomnia, and old age are catching up with me!

I'm sure you don't need me to tell you that it's been a long time since I last updated. I'm sure some of my less dAmnable watchers have started to wonder if I just quit dA. Of course, those are the same people who probably won't even read this journal.

Not like I blame them.

Anyway, I'm going to try and not bore you with every excruciating detail regarding the events of the last month or so. Suffice it to say that slowly (ever so slowly) the pieces are starting to come together. Almost everything is planned, we're just waiting for the money to come in so we can actually pay for this shit. Ahaha.

I had planned to give a brief summary of my mind's inner workings these past few weeks, but honestly, I just don't have the heart. I'd just like to apologize for not being around. I wish I could say that I'm too busy, but honestly, I just have very little desire to hang around any more. I know it's not fair. I've let the people who care about me slip away, and at the same time gotten closer to people and situations I should have left alone. So I'm sorry, and I'm really going to try and do better. If you don't see me around on dA, come find me on MSN. I might not be on to talk for long, but anything is better than nothing, right?

Right.


Also, in regards to the title, last weekend I dyed my hair. Just the bangs and a bit of the front part. I actually just bleached over my roots and a previous dye job. The result: A sunrise growing out of the top of my head when I comb my hair straight back.

I quite like it. Ask =Nex9k9. It's awesome.


That's about it, kids.

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